DONT WORRY BE RESOLUTE IN THE VIRTUE
im sitting in the hospital emergency room waiting for my name to be called and this little tiny toddler kid walking with his mom passes me and as soon as our eyes meet he smiles and waves his hands 🤚🖐.
Everything will be okay 👌
i will not be walking on May 25, 2019. it’s because i have four more things to complete and it’s not wise to rush through it — not in 12 days. i’ll still be done with school way before 2020 but as far as celebrating goes, i’m good with waiting until i’m finished. no shortcuts, dp!
had i …
everything with you ..
loved .. i
am i nothing
there is … anything,
(read in reverse?)
Yes we won one game this season! Check the FXA website if you c/dare.
You see? Barely! BUTT HAY… who is placing bets on these games? No one!
A win is a win whatever language you speak, wherever tribe you rep. And wow, really wow, I learned tonight that our crew’s only-win was THEIR only-loss. (Earlier they tallied their 2nd red line against a team we lost to a week ago.)
So! Who is really 2nd-best in the league? (Us?) The answer? Does. Not. Matter!
Second-best is saying you barely lost. Second-best is forgotten. Quick. Who did the Patriots beat on Super Bowl Sunday in February?* See?
But on the other side of the coin, where it is more copper we are confronted by a dull argument. Well, who did the Eagles beat in 2018’s Super Bowl? The reigning champs!
That’s right. The Eagles BEAT THE BEST, the New [Universe] Patriots. And not only did the Eagles slide home by a greasy 8 points, they took out a Cook to make their own signature Philly Special.
When a target is on your back, YOU must prepare that much extra, with this much vigor, with that much enthusiasm. Why? Everyone does everything they can … to pull the strings of upset.
Jesus did, too. If I believe that my identity is anchored in my Lord and Savior, I too, will carry this target on my back — and my adversaries will prepare 200% more than they would against someone who does not carry this cross to shave any points off the scoreboard or injure me, internally or externally.
Coach Smart talked about this target once. The Rams were at one point in the season ranked 6th in the nation. Teams feared Ram Nation but that pushed and drove their motivation harder to take us down. Beating us would make them look amazing.
And that’s what happened. Visitors came in drooling. We fell out of place. We did not reach those heights again. Jesus died in order to win. In him, we know no such thing as losing. We see his loss for our gain.
It is impossible to see his death as a loss—unless your opinionating that his death wasn’t necessary or that it would have been better if he stayed dead. His dad willed it. Vengeance is mine says the Lord. That’s substitutionary atonement. He took the penalty on our behalf. Christ alone either drives us to take the target off his back, or ask for the same. The latter is us responding in faith.
Is there a target on our back? Hm. There is a target on everyones’ hearts. We know what it’s like being 2nd, 3rd, or unranked. But in Christ we’re always first. And as 1st-placed children, we’re on top of the class. For that we are grateful AND set apart.
But we also know what it feels like to be on the other side. The other side is not more copper. By God’s great mercy we were saved.
The next time you say, “‘This’ is as good as it gets,” consider rephrasing that to, “This is as good as Jesus gets,” because He knows what true victory is, an eternal win is the sweetest of all. That triumph goes beyond our comprehension. We trust that He knows what is best for us. The giver of understanding is who we are loved by and for His glory we love to live for.
Enjoy losing but get used to winning, whether it’s more souls or blossoming in grace that’s eternal.
* the St. Louis Rams
if you ever land here it’s 10:19 pm, first Friday of May; I’m sitting in a room that’s painted the colorway of sea crystal, air Jordan dunks, wondering: where is my laptop bag? I think I know where it is but I have no clue where it is. I just finished teaching from Louis Berkhof’s summary of Christian doctrine, chapter 2 on general and special revelation. Then we prayed over a passage from Romans 10:11-13 and 1 Peter 2:9–10. Let’s proclaim the excellencies of Jesus more. Yeah, it’s HIM who gave us mercy; Yes?
But where is my laptop? I’m going to go upstairs and check the baby room.. if not there, I’m going to try to think of every place I visited this week.
Few moments later*
it’s not there.
So I had it in my trunk. All week, that’s where I saw it last. Okay.
Honestly. Idk. If this is sad. But I forgot what I did this week. I seriously can’t remember how many times I’ve been in my car. Monday: drove to “work“, drove to Maryland, picked up Muzi, came home, then I.. Tuesday: studied in the morning, drove to get my tires fixed, drove to Lily’s.. football game.. Wednesday: where’d I go on Wednesday.. did I go to WT Auto? Maybe that’s where I left it. Check tomorrow* Thursday: “work”.. and then.. to game.. didn’t see it in my trunk, assumed it would be at home.. Friday: not here in my bag..
okay. Gonna go home.
Jesus I trust you’re protecting me against all forces of evil
had a nightmare .. fell asleep in the car .. too tired to gym .. there was a reason for that level of fatigue ..
dont remember too much of what happened .. didn’t even want to think about what went on .. it startled me .. that sick and deep chest burn .. all I recall is the question being asked before waking up ..
“do you really believe in Him?”
it’s true how organic.. God moves. In such mysterious ways, but yes, God moves in such loving and adorable ways. Thank you God for the small moments that remind me how great You are.
no i’m not getting a pet fish but
i’ll be taking care of a dog for a — while? — who knows how long! but idc! yayy. so grateful. thank you Jesus for answering this. 😀
golden doodleeee – coming monday!
aaaaaaugghhhh please help me
calvin and hobbes
i know that if, and that’s a big if,
I become a dad i’ll be praying to God and asking Him
how to be a good dad
how to prepare my son for the next step, stage, of life
and become more and more sacrificial, not more and more selfish,
Especially teach him how to be a wise leader
a leader who can set the tone a leader who can be the head of the household a leader who depends fully on Jesus’ blood which purifies our sins
sins of mine, sins of my son’s, and maybe, if she’s in the picture, hers
i see how my dad’s weak leadership
affects how i lead others, anywhere, any organization, and I so so so want to pray that
if I ever have a son, i’ll be asking God to help me prepare the kid, who then becomes the teen, who then becomes the adult
To be a good head of a household, to be a good husband, to love others well, and to always always always follow Christ, even if it means humiliation in wealth and, or, poverty.
but let YOUR WILL be done. Waiting and waiting and praying and praying.
God you must REALLY not want me there, 💯.
It’s straight. All part of Your long-run, grand, and good scheme.
So much on my plate, but when have I not said that? It’s been about 10 years since.. God thanks for always keeping it a buck with me.
You got me to where I am at.
God? I need ya.
arrogance is like
staring at the tv monitor at night with your room lights off
living like that decision is not causing any damage to your eyes
God take away my, our, arrogance
For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.
2 Corinthians 4:18
Dad you win. You win.
You always win. You never lose.
You’ll win again. You’ll win everything.
My desire to win is losing. My desire to let You win is winning.
If You win, I win, we all win. If I lose, You win, we all win.
Giving is better than receiving.
only God knows what happened these past two hours.
Pastoral “success” is not measured by how well liked I am…
sure, I will be here.
idk. be active? be passive?
game over and not enough coins/ two quarters left for my bus ride home/
love God with all of your heart, soul, strength and mind. love your neighbor as yourself.
No human answer would answer the question: Daniel, so why do you love Richmond?
“Our primary purpose in community is not that our needs are being met, but that Jesus would be lifted up. It is not that we aren’t blessed by the love we share for one another, but that we experience our greatest joy when Jesus is most glorified.”
“Experiencing a people who confess their sins against one another, repent, and forgive is foreign to the world. Communities that live in this way, transformed by the gospel, will not only have a good reputation among their neighbors, but also they will point them to hope in Jesus.”
“The purpose of our lives transcends the country and culture in which we live. Meaning is found in community, not individualism; joy is found in generosity, not materialism; and truth is found in Christ, not universalism. Ultimately, Jesus is a reward worth risking everything to know, experience, and joy.”
You is right David Platt
take me today if that’s Your will though/ heaven has beds and pillows/
the softest plush as soon as my eyes close and my mind roams, I would dream of sleeping/ ah, no lower back aches, no snoring that would wake up neighbors in different countries/
if I miss her, yes, but i’ll catch myself before I miss her face/ she’ll join me soon, and I wouldn’t mind, sharing this bed space/
Every blanket has its pros and cons, like sheep or people/ that’s why I chose this song, right before I sleep/
// 10v3 //
the walk through the garden mm wasn’t it yesterday?
wait … that was six months ago, pardon me … this semester’s wayyy
toooo overwhelming but i’m trying my best to pay
attention to us; need to invest in a heads-up display,
because the road is full of obstacles, check the lanes,
we board planes under dark skies, expect delays
growing stronger & … even when you’re injured you come dressed to play and that’s when i’m asking God what are the next steps to take?
everything’s been real; i’m not going to front, uh, sit here, act like i don’t think it’ll last long, on knee
do i get down though? and ask … the brightest star to light my night sky when i didn’t even pass astron omy
if she says no i’d understand more than she thinks i will,
no matter how many pages she sends me … explaining why … i’ll have to shred the paper and trust that it was never Willed
and the damage inflicted will hopefully be forgiven, forgotten, maybe
wearing her heart on her sleeve of scarlet and cotton, navy
the joker and harley of gotham, crazy
never putting God second anymore, when i did that before my life was toxic, lazy
i had no reason to want to live i forgot that as a Christian i was told to witness
so whoever i meet i’m trying to let him know about heaven’s shindig
when someone hears the Gospel they’re given an option, big diff
receive his gift,
faith or stick to unbelief, but i will try my best to deliver Jesus to your heart
with everything i got in mine, the rest is up to God to switch it
If you can save a soul as disgusting, muddied, scumbaggy, wretched, lost, misguided as mine, it’s Your will that was done.
just hit me: marriage is a divine deal.
a man and a woman say their vows. they are united for as long as they are alive. when a man and a woman get married, they know that they are joined by God’s grace, and when they have children, they raise them, teach them sound doctrine, love them, disciple them to worship Jesus. then the children grow up to repeat the cycle. we weren’t supposed to live in harmony, marriage is so divine. childbearing is so painful, but she will not die. she holds onto the promise that child will join the faith community and expand God’s kingdom for His glory. and the man? he will die for his bride, so that she will be sanctified and made perfect for the time she meets Christ face-to-face.
“Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself up for her, so that He might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, that He might present to Himself the church in all her glory, having no spot or wrinkle or any such thing; but that she would be holy and blameless.” Ephesians 5:25-27
the new covenant, to love him with all your heart, soul, strength, and mind, and to love your neighbor as yourself, is to have a relationship with God through faith in Jesus. like how circumcision was a sign of the covenant family, baptism also is, not professing your faith, but a sign that you’re also a child of the faith. we have so much security in this family, as Jesus is the groom and the church is his bride. yes, he died for the church. thus, churchgoers who receive faith are then welcomed into his household as His children. then they go out and they share the good news, so that God’s descendants will grow more numerous than the stars.
thanks God for my best friend.
so for believers there is eternal life. death lost its sting. so there’s one way to live.
think im going through some thorny times. rough patches. jagged twists. hurts. He’s faithful. He wants me to be faithful. (i dare not announce on social media platforms whether I am or not.)
God is my judge. Please Lord forgive me for the number of times.. I relapse. Your son is perfect, and I in him am covered by his righteousness. Nothing, good or bad, I do, contributes to my salvation. No more Nike’s “Just Do It” campaign that’s been getting people to fail themselves and feel inadequate more than they started.
Just faith. Just Scripture. Just grace.
She says that she hopes that she’s someone I prayed for, while I’m sitting here like, I don’t deserve a milli-rocking-second of her attention. For her to even remember my name..
while im telling her not to eat mcD’s I’m here ordering a double cheese burger happy meal with gogurts and fries with no salt. I’m a wreck and not talking the potbelly sandwich.
please Lord take everything away from what I don’t need right now.
prays.. and praise.. is like breath.. and breathe..
I have so much to do, it’s not funny. If I laugh, it’s because I cry. Haha. 😭.
My lower back isn’t in the best shape so I’m trying to make the right (necessary?) moves.
God, you created time. You created space. You are love.
4:15 PM and it feels like I’m..
Live life to its fullest. Rely on Him to push you through. Prayers up.
i can hear your cries in the wind, feel your tears in the rain/
2 times is a pattern/ (my supervisor at seasons 52 told me that if i do something twice he’ll see it as a pattern)
your voice gets lost in the chatter/ (trying to listen for God’s voice but it gets drowned in the world sometimes)
batter up, or batter down?/ (step up to the plate and swing? or ‘bat-her down’ reject her?)
look who got more rings than Saturn now/ (Saturn has seven rings, Jordan has six championship rings — Jesus is king though)
Saturday cartoons, hear the laughter? how?/ (remember every Saturday we’d get up early to watch TV shows? where did that go?)
the parents acting all childish in the living room (no matter what, they argue)/ (more than the kids acting childish, the older I get it’s the parents (or myself in the future when I become a parent) acting like kids, arguing)
pay it forward. pay it forward?!/ (remember to give is to bless and we repeat that because earlier I said ‘two times is a pattern’)
got no money in my checking and i’m checking if i could buy another second/ (just because you have no money doesn’t mean you can’t use your credit card; they say time is money but you know that’s not true)
get by another second, every breath and step in the right direction/ (money won’t buy you extra time, so your whole body is God’s, you are a living sacrifice)
by faith not by sight i’m trekking. following the voice of the shepherd, where he promises i can find my rest in/ (Jesus is the Shepherd, and only his sheep know His voice, it’s not what I will do, but by faith in Him, I will obey no matter how hard it gets; Matthew 11:28)
Consolation for the heartbroken is here.
He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” Rev. 21:4
Keep your responses to incidents minor or major consistent, simply because no matter what happens, God remains faithful.
Relieved although re-lived.
is this what near-30 year old’s think about? dang. entering the new year with hold-up-wait-a-second i’m-still-getting-dressed thoughts. grandma turned 87 yesterday. next year i’ll be 30 and she’ll be 88, the year i was born. i got lost thinking about my childhood. i got surprised remembering to thank my cousin for not giving me money to enable my addiction. i got swerved thinking about how she’s raising her daughter in a Jewish school. shoot. reality check just came in the mail. amount’s too big to disclose. if you know an accountant let me know, keep me accountable. mixtape 2018? i wish. lyrics are hard to write when you’re writing papers all day.
reading an email made me cry like no tomorrow.
is a female horse that trots in darkness. when it’s pitched black outside, she thrives, chewing glum when her breath’s hotter than her temper.
she waits for her sunset in shining armor, and runs away from dawn’s wake up call: mourning.
Our nightmare tortures those who do not find peace, who seek no comfort in the One who saves, and who don’t believe that this loving person is a … real person.
might be my favorite hour of the day. just reminds you Jesus is the same yesterday today and tomorrow that His grace is unchanging 24/7.
just took a nap in my car and now about to go all out.. until my eyes get heavy and anchor the body to rest again.
5:52 quick reminder as I sit in the Tyson’s McDonald’s:
1) they blast the music so people can’t “fall asleep” here. There are a few who have overcome the boombap so I call that a boom…nap.
2) remember Daniel, you’re not alone. There are probably millions of people out there in the world studying and reading books and trusting in God’s providence at a mcdonald’s or maybe a Burger King.
3) that maxim “time is money” is a head scratcher. Do those who want more time want more money? Those with no time to spend with their kids means they don’t have any money to spend on their kids? Do people with a lot of time in their hands have a lot of money in their hands? Where you spend the most time, is that where you spend the most money? But what about those who don’t love money? They don’t love time? Hm.
2 Corinthians 12:10 (ESV)
10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
double socks, wrapped a Vcu dry-fit around my neck to use as a scarf, my suit jacket as a blanket, and dreaming of roasting marshamallows around a campfire.
your Word comforts me.
there’s a lot on my plate but i’d rather keep my eyes focused on Him.
whether, it’s writing S’ays or penning a new song
still dot my Ice, and cross my T.ea, raise a glass of oolong
to make a toast, a drink for the ageless, i mean,
a drink for the ages, think with the sages
sip on a chard, swirl the barn with your sharp blade
that cuts the grass, a glass shard, a cold shower
after a hard day
why do i stay up more than my body can take it
if i were in the garden with eve and stood there naked would i be asleep
or close my eyes and fake it
a heart issue that’s what they say,
that’s what they keep telling me
a girl loses her dad overnight
and a boy says he hates his mom’s oversight
yelling three, two, one like if i don’t do what she wants
i’m grounded for seven weeks
why am i losing feeling in my wrists?
what happens when i lose my sight but the vision exists
a magazine in the hospital can be life-changing every page flip
bright smiles of cosmetic surgeons glisten words screaming for you to
listen support our business
money will buy you a new life if you can make its payments
but if i were you, if i were you?
that’s the thing if i tell them, they’ll
misunderstand until she meets her ideal match
and when he trips and falls on his knee and gets a concussion and asks her if his name is mary in the future
she’ll say yes and change her name to mrs. under stood
a girl i have gotten to know pretty well, by God’s grace, over a span of two years shared with me, by God’s grace, that she’s attracted to guys who suffer and are innocent. so i went deep see thinking. it’s kind of like deep sea fishing, but instead of fish, it’s casting a line for thoughts. sometimes i’ll reel in understanding, sometimes i’ll catch wisdom. i thank God for revealing what is hidden in the darker waters of my world. sometimes i’ll leave the ocean empty-handed. thankfully, not today.
i don’t want to be a man who complains and whines to people. venting, sure, who doesn’t? but if i reach out to someone and he or she rebukes me for thoughts i should not keep, i would be grateful. open rebuke to heal an open wound–i’ll take it. but when i’m suffering for Christ, i would hope that whatever i share–where i’m sleeping on the weekends, how many hours i’m up every week, my inabilities and insufficiencies and inadequacies–please, may they never sound like complaints! on the other side of complaints, may they never sound like i desire pity! i’ve endured and overcome a variety of afflictions–but a majority of them were self-inflicted. or were they? i can’t, and won’t doubt that God’s been by my side every step of my times of obedience and disobedience.
what is total depravity? why is man considered “totally” depraved? yes sin has affected all-us, even our thoughts and knowledge. that’s what the noetic effect is. we are incapable of understanding everything, yet God gives us clarity so we don’t lose our sanities. He gives us direction when we feel like we’re walking through clouds, not on them. total depravity is like.. stepping into a don john at 8 pm in the summer. no one hops into an immaculate port-a-potty! haha, it is utter devastation to all five of the senses. every fiber of all-us, our “total” being is taken aback by what happened in the don-john. close your eyes and breathe with your mouth open? nope, i’ve tried that. doesn’t work. (no one wipes off their mis-aimed piss after use.) what Jesus did on the cross was voluntary, voluntarily custodial.
why do we, I, take yourself so seriously? let’s try to take ourselves less seriously, and instead, take ministry seriously. take the gospel seriously, apply seriously the Word of life on your heart. you put face masks on your head to clean your pores, why not read Him during those 15 minutes?
blessed are the poor in spirit, blessed are the pure in heart. (matthew 5:3 & mt. 5:8)
“trust in the Lord and do not lean on your own understanding” #true
i dont want to be a hindrance to my friends, enemies, anyone.
everyone’s stumbling block needs to be “Christ crucified” and here i am nottttt trying to get in their way. me? obstacle? no thanks, maybe another time*. love is patient, love is kind, love is.. read the rest of 1 corinthians 13. if the Word tells us not to lean on our own understanding, i’m guessing a lot of people do. when they do, they fail, because the antithesis is to trust in the Lord. okay. that’s perpetual, not a case-by-case basis.
so let’s go! whatever understanding i have of someone’s introspection means nothing. tighten up, dp. whatever detroit’s going through, i don’t understand. trust in God. whatever orlando’s going through, don’t try to understand! trust in the Lord. whatever virginia is thinking, trust in the King. whatever maryland wants to do, cool. trust in the Father.
throwing away any of my crutches that say “dp’s understanding” into the garbage. no point. always learning something new. say deuces to the false prophets.
i love God, Jesus, and do me. prov 3:6 In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. #true
*there is no other time
p.s. imperfections are imperfections for a reason, no one’s perfect
Shh-ouldn't have doubted. I leave emptier than I entered. Pd shut my system down for thinking outside of myself. Thank you for that, mentor.
Don't regret. Instead, just kill it.
Prayers are being answered. Dad said yes. This might or might not be my last chance but I am going to pray continually.
A HS student asked me about how he should rebuke someone. And I basically told him I needed that rebuke. Yes. Better is open rebuke than a clothed mouth.
I am broken but Jesus is victorious.
Dear future Daniel,
You already are aware, or should I say, you will never-ever again be oblivious, of how perfect God's timing is, and two, to never cut the line. The latter is more of a troubler for you, but you've healed a lot since the 2000s. Taking shortcuts is the Achilles heel and cause of pain in your life, but that's because, for you, actions are "most hardest" to control versus not bringing your thoughts into life. Right?
For me any..
Anyway. To the point. Two to be exact.
One. I am in love with someone's heart and persona and character. She is XY years old and I will not disclose anything else about her unless you want to know if she's Christian or beautiful because, that…my friend…is what she encapsulates inside and out. I am praying about this and the sloths are training me how to run.
Second. I am not going to guarantee myself anything regarding Ministry. This is God's church. I'm just a pawn. Heaven is my destiny the road is narrow, and I am just a car being operated by the Spirit.
Not take thanks, but give thanks.
Cheers to another three-night-stay at Honda Accord Hotel. 5-star, one bedroom, non-smoking, all accommodations and essentials supplied by God.
Learning … a lot about what it means to truly love His people. Wonder if Jesus asked Peter, four, no, 12, maybe even 349 times, “Do you love me?” if Peter’s response would have stayed the same. Dang. This lifetime commitment to picking up the cross, what amazing grace I have received to even carry it another step! I don’t deserve salvation, yet Jesus said, “It is finished.”
Lord, I pray for my staff. Please show them the importance of showing up. Thank you for their hearts to serve, but may their hearts be in the right place.
God help me get into the Master’s of Divinity program. I don’t want to graduate with no degree. But even if I don’t, may Your will be done. God says, “You don’t need to get straight A’s if you’re busy living for me.” Sure? I’m not shooting for an idolatrous score.. It’s just that I didn’t even know what Reformed meant before enrollment..
These past four months never highlighted a “honeymoon” phase. I can’t even say “honeymoonish.” Maybe the first day it was okay, but seriously, even now, I’m just…28 about to turn 29, living at Honda Accord Hotel, scraping by to survive, because you’ll trying to budget. I’m not ashamed of where I’m at in my faith.
Either my battery will die before my friend gets here or I’ll finish this post before my battery dies. Sitting in a booth at Yard House at SFM. I haven’t seen this guy since January(?), glad I can catch him before he leaves for Cali tomorrow. Good friend. All of my friends live so far away from here. I’m like home base for them. Boo hoo DP cry more.
One down at a time. One play at a time. Just trust the process and keep learning and asking questions. Remember where you started?
Yeah. It’s one or the other.
Trusting God with everything, from the next penny I make to the next person I encounter. I love the students he’s placed in my life. How I’m doing is up for God to judge. All I know for certain is that Satan has finite resources. Jesus already, and keeps, won.
29 in September but remember age is nothing but a number.